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Claire Vaye Watkins’s Urgent, Sweaty Novel About a Woman Who’s a Mess

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Having headed west, breast pump in tow, for a book event in her former home state of Nevada, the narrator — not necessarily in this order — meets and gets high with old friends; longs for a dead ex-boyfriend; doesn’t long for her baby; forces her way off a plane; leaks breast milk; gets very high alone in the desert; masturbates with frequency; wrestles with a thing she calls “the big gnar”; has a good deal of (mostly anal) sex; cries often; circles the remains of a place she thinks of as home.

This novel’s sweaty urgency, its ambitious disruption of form and content, makes it tough to criticize. Over the course of the book, Claire (the character, that is) dredges up and sifts through her past while at the same time shedding everything in her present, including, briefly, her iPhone. This approach works nicely, even if a slice of her mother’s back story is told through sets of letters so dull only a daughter could love them, a fictional technique Nabokov called “a sure sign of a certain weariness on the part of the author.” Perhaps. But most prose wouldn’t stand up against the narrator’s breakneck pace, frightening honesty and biting, self-deprecating humor.

The letters are a quibble in a book this angry and alive. Where else would you find a woman sporting an actual vagina dentata (medically speaking, a dermoid cyst) choosing “to behave like a man” by bravely making a run for freedom? And like men, when they (not infrequently) leave behind babies they don’t enjoy tending to, Claire makes an unholy mess of her carefully constructed life and then has to decide whether she can — or wants to — put any of its parts back together.

As Watkins writes, in a virtuoso performance of a chapter titled “How I Like It,” “I am not choosing darkness, but darkness is choosing me.” Maybe, but by nourishing her complicated desires, she holds on. Perceptive and shameless, the narrator confesses: “I like it when a word goes meaningless from prayer, a word like death, a word like daughter, a word like wife. I like it after rich bitch yoga in a strip mall.” A couple of pages later, she goes on: “Pull my hair. Be kind to all plants and animals and children. Leave me alone. That’s how I like it.” Me too, Claire Vaye Watkins, me, too.


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